So Long MS Walker...

Before I get into the fun New Year's Eve stuff, let me tell you what happened at work today. I got laid off. Yes that's right. I got my walking papers around 11 o'clock this morning. I think I am still a littl shocked but we had a feeling it might happen. We were just hoping that it would be later rather than sooner.

Back in October the company I worked for, MS Walker, laid off a lot of people. At that time I felt semi safe due to the fact that I was working in the Property Management Department and I was the only one in that department. It wasn't until all the lay offs happened that I found out that I was no longer going to be in that department and that I was taking over the database management. I was assured at the time that it wasn't due to my performance, but something always bothered me due to the fact that they put someone in that position who had NO experience what so ever. And to make matters worse I was asked to take a pay cut. At this time we were happy that I still had a job and insurance. But as the days progressed I found myself in a difficult position of training someone to do my job and training myself for my new position. This was fine, I can multi task...and if you ask me what my best quality is (interview questions) I will tell you I am a wiz at multi tasking.

I jokingly told Steve at this point that they were just keeping me until I was finished training the new person. Sad to think now how those words were prophetic.

To be completely honest, I was upset about how things happened. I was upset that I felt that I was taking a set backwards in a company that I had committed myself to for 5 years. I was upset because no matter how I trained, things were not being done and I felt I was going to be blamed.

I started noticing little things changing around the office. It wasn't the same place that I worked at just 4 years ago. Things had changed, people had changed, and in my opinion not for the better. I dreaded going to work. I was having a hard time with the person who took over my previous role and things were being said that made me not look good. None of them true but posion spreads quickly. Just a week before I got laid off I went to my manager (whom is the best manager ever and the one constant I've had throughout this whole ordeal) and let him know what was happening and what was being said. I wasn't going to down for someone else's actions. I was a great manager and no one could tell me otherwise.

I started brushing up my resume and Steve and I started making a plan of attack. We were hoping that we could keep our plan in action until the end of 2010, but that was not to be. Thursday morning a friend in the accounting department was let go. And I knew it was coming. I just knew. So when I got the call to my manager's office I was not surprised. Other people were but I was not. There were 16 people let go that day. I have to say I did fairly well until I looked into my manager's eyes. I was not going to cry I told him. I was not crying for being let go but I was crying for the friendships that I had formed and for the circumstances. And let's face it, I was upset. Who wouldn't be in a position like this. I received my packet and I gathered my things and left.

There are a few things that just rub me the wrong way about this and now I am prepared to put them out for the world to know. 1. The Owner didn't have the balls to be there. Yes I know he doesn't have to do the firing but it would be nice had he been there to show his remorse. 2. I was let go one month prior to my 401K fully vesting. This is the biggest blow. 3. I feel that I am more capable than two other people who kept their jobs. Yes I know that these things are petty but it's the truth. And if I can't be truthful in my blog then why have it.

I really don't have any resentful feelings towards the company. It's a business and the owner did what he thought was right. So there really isn't anything I can do about that. I had actually applied for a job at Chevron the day before all of this happened. So we will see.

Funny thing is I am so very happy to be home with Sadie. This is a great time for us. And I know that God has a plan and this was part of it. I have applied for a couple of jobs but to be honest we are going to try and work things out so that I can stay home full time. We are even contemplating trying for another baby. We had already started that process and our appointment is on the 4th of January. So while I am home and have unemployment we are going to try and have another baby. See things happen for a reason. I am completely confident in our decision and I'm so very thankful for a loving partner who supports and cares for me.

So enough of the dreary stuff I'll now post about our fun evening.